Today it’s cold out, so cold that I decided not to bother sending the kids to school when it was announced that they had a half day. It was so cold that I thought it best not to bother with anything because I just didn’t want to deal with the cold. My feet have been buried in blankets pretty much all day long. I’ve been holed up in my room with the kids because it’s one of the warmest rooms in the house. I am not a fan of the cold.
As for the rest of the title, I’m just not feeling it today. I’m not feeling anything. I managed to get dressed, but I’m feeling to blah about anything to even put on a bra. Our company for the night was supposed to be cancelled, but I don’t think it was. Before that time I’m going to throw on a bra and pretend to be functional, but before that I’m not going to do terribly much. I just don’t want to be bothered.
And yet I know I’m going to have to get out of this funk sooner or later. Not only do I have Christmas stuff to do, but I’ve also been invited to a gay New Year’s Eve party. I have to admit, I’ll feel a little awkward there. I’m not really anything right now, but I’m determined to go out and have some fun. It seems to be a very club night kind of event, so I’m not sure what that’s going to be like. I’m not even sure what I’m supposed to wear, which makes me all kinds of nervous about the event, so I’ve got to get some excitement generated about all of this.
Right now I’m just feeling a little burnt out. The holidays really take a toll on me and I’m not sure I’m up for all the rounds of Christmas I’m going to have to do. We’re thinking about doing something for Christmas Eve. Christmas Day is always a big event. Then after Christmas I have two more points where people are supposed to bring gifts for the kids. I feel like it’s going to be a whole exhausting ordeal.
I’m not sure I’m up for all of this, but I’ve got to find a way to make it through. I really wish I could just give up and curl up under my blankets, but there’s just too much to do. Tomorrow it looks like we’re painting my daughter’s room. Sunday we may get ambitious and get more paint, then paint another room. Then during the week, when all the kids are in school, we’re going to be trying to do the hall. That will leave us one more room to accomplish, and then everything will be done, still nice and fresh for the inspection. Then there will be little things here and there, but not terribly much. Mostly we just need to make sure the house is clean and we do what we can about the fruit fly population that seems to not want to die. Hopefully he won’t go into the kitchen so it won’t be a problem.
For now I think I’m just going to go back to watching Gilmore Girls. I need a break from life again. I’m exhausted and I haven’t even done anything. It’s this cold. It makes everything hurt and that wears me down. It doesn’t help that I’m under a lot of stress right now. I’m ready to curl back up in my fleecy pajamas and go back to bed.